Her Diamond Heart

a damn tuesday

2011-11-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Humans are selfish, most of them.
Majority will always hope that loved ones are there for them when they fall,
but when their loved ones get screwed up damn badly, they are never there.

Fact of life.

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The foolish girl and the little boy

2011-10-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

There was once a girl and a little boy.

A pair of really good friends...

They went sitting along the beach one sunny afternoon.

The girl asked "Hey kiddy, when will you introduce cutie hot boys to me?"

The boy replied" NO I DONT WANT TO"

girl:" Why?????Dont be selfishhh man!"

Little boy said: "No, that's because I dont want to give you away to others....".

As time goes by,
little boy got too busy, he never looked back..
He never turn to the little girl when he has troubles, when he's too busy,when he's stressed up..
Little boy got his own life..

Slowly, he never contact the little girl anymore,
no calls, no text messages.

Little girl was left there all alone from then on.
She never knew that some words are said just for show.

He never ever mean it perhaps.

~The end~

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2011-10-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

woke up for an appointment with client...

techincal error all thanks to SMRT train service...

Thank god Jun came,

Hero saved the day and fetch me to little India.

But then again, my clients " Put me Aeroplane".

-__- God!

bought Jun yum yum lunchie and THANK YOU HERO FOR SACRIFICING!

Poor Meng woke up for only 5 minutes and he drove out straight to pick me up.

Now you know who's that nice guy!

Standing at almost 1.8m, fair, super good figure, lean and fit,kind hearted, singapore national runner.

Any chicks interested? hahaha

*salute*

As for work, Im still working so hard for it.

Rely on someone, why not rely on yourself.

People cant give us what we want, I just hafta earn it myself and be strong.

Every single day, I fight using mind power.

Its so draining to maintain and to keep a clear mind.

Sometimes I wish I can just work a normal stable job and have a simple life to fulfil my dreams.

BANG!

come back to reality.

Oh well, unless Im some rich bastards.

I would sit back, relax and party my life away with bestfriends.

Won't you do the same?

Given that everything comes so easily.

You dont even needed work for it.

Cool.

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The october babes were crazy to go try BUNGEE MAX at clarke quay.

I love rides.

SUPER ADDICT, but SHIT!

That's the scariest ride ever!

Nothing to hold, you cant grab your belts as they will loosen!

You cant grab your seats, there's eject button for the seats!

OKAY! Just die!

shooting up hundreds of metres in 2 seconds! GOSHHHhhhhHHHH!

The seats go 360 DEGREES!

whole body weight on JUST 2 FREAKIN BELTS!

I FREAKED OUT! *ScrEEaaaaaaMMMSSSS*!

Luckily we did not puke our brunch out.

Buffet brunch at Goodwood is awesome.

Someday, I wanna bring my love there to enjoy.

Oh well, Someday perhaps.

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A little party for octs babies @ powerhouse

Our homeground, our second home all thanks to BOSS!

I Love my humans alot!

Love it when we fix each other's hair, put on make up for them! and bitchin together! :p

Bumped into Handsome super fit boy Gary @ PH!

*screams*Long john silver BOY!Buddy for years! :)

There we go rocking the house even when lights are on!

SEE! MANAGER ALSO GO CRAZY!hahaha

My birthday's coming soon!

Yet to plan anything for it

So last minute again!

Zhangyi loves smiley!

So Pocky bought Smiley hoodie and embroid name and hearts hearts for xiao zhang!

MY sewing skill rusty already, so I poked myself so many times to get that done.

Phew~

I hope she loves it!

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HARPEE BEEDAY KOKster!

My CBK bro,10yrs friendship and going!

HUAT AH!

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Come to think about birthday wishes..

Other than the usuals...

I dont think I'll get what I really want in my life.

Somethings are impossible they call.

Maybe there's really limit in things I can do.

Or rather, Humans can do.

We envy what others have that we do not.

I pray so hard for my darlings to find real love.

To be happy and of course, ever after.

Like fairytale.

Especially small, purps and anyhow.

I know the hearts' missing, I dont know when I'll find it again..

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This is sucha long post.

I came back from a run with charger.

Charger looks so good in sportswear...haha

Died after couple rounds

AIYE!

Weak lah Pocky!

@___@

Came home, I sat down on the floor alone.

I just stoned and rot.

EMO a little and enjoy the quiet moment.

Im not happy but nothing can make me feel better other than myself.

oyasumi!

Hugs and Kisses, misses from Pockyland

~@~

My 10th Month!

2011-10-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

Somehow just realised that its my 10th month in Price.
Time flies...

The place I make good friends, the place I gained knowledge and life experience.

In fact, so many things changed in the past 1 year.
Especially people around me.

All the make and break in life.

Getting a little E.M.O late at night...
having no one around, not even family members.

It is quite a tough thing to do to keep the loneliness away.

Met a client this afternoon.
Told me about his love story.

1 day he met a lady at Marsiling wet market bus stop.
This lady dropped something and he picked it up for her.

They started talking...
subsequently, everytime they bump into each other at the bus stop, they would chit chat.

Soon after, they spent time together eating, visiting each other's place.

He called it " Love at first sight".
Its "Feelings", he said.

Today, they have a son, 16 years old.
They have a big house, good life, car to drive and a happy family.

And when he said that, there was nothing except a wide smile on his face.
Showing how blessed and happy he is.
That's "Xing Fu".

Its fate we call it.

Rarely find this in modern society.
The pure, innocent and simple love life.

Which dude would not look at how you look, how you dress up,what kinda image you carry...
or rather what hairstyle, what handbag you carry and how's your figure?

Hah..

Im grateful that god gave me what I always wanted, its just that I don't get to keep them.
Maybe its just "you had it once...sometime ago..".

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Considering to go overseas, yes...but no, where to go?
Looking at my favourite industry, Fashion, but Im not ready to venture.

Feeling so stressed up over work and lonely home alone...
I just dont wanna be that party girl, who's having fun out there all nights, drinking my life away, exhaust myself to pass time quickly.

I miss cooking at home, laze at home watching Tv and just listening to jazz songs with my hearts...

I miss the old times...
the times when I feel im home. Loved.

xoxo,

MissyGlamourous

Baby I'm Back!

2011-03-09T11:17:00.001+08:00

Can't believe I'm back here once again.
Can't even remember when was the last.

Life's been busy,way too busy,yet fruitful.

Don't seem to have time ,all the time...

Shall squeeze myself dry in march and take a small break hee!

Am on my way back to office, after appointment.

Missing some high tea time with sweet cheesecake and coffee...
Back to reality,
I have not even have my breakfast yet.

Hah!

Wow, I actually started dancing again,after 9 months of not exercising and moving at all!

People come and go.
Some people I see them grow.
Congratulations to all my loved ones who are promoted,had increments and jobhopping for a higher pay and better prospect opportunities!

If you happen to see this ,you know who you guys are!
Jiayou!Good Luck!

Xoxo,
Pocky the pig ^@^

HAPPY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR HUMANS! =)

2011-02-11T11:40:00.001+08:00

Wishing everyone good health good wealth!
HUAT ah!

May happiness always be with every single one of YOU! Wahaha!

I'm down with 2 days MC,
Must be all the lack of sleep and crazy snacking during cny!
Heard of it? Its Pork throat infection and pigheadache!

Wish you with super LUCK!
Double fortune!
And grow FAT together!
MUACKS!~

cant wait to say TGIF!

2010-12-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

Its already thursday!
Training days are so sleepy, yet very happy to meet new amazing colleagues.
Its SB department 's function at LUNAR tomorrow night.YAY!

Gonna hit Lunar with a few batch mates and also to join Yi & new team members.
Been feeling so tired.
So glad to be home straight after work!

Now I treasure slacking moments and lying on the sofa all I want.
Mummy's cooking is always the BEST!
Yum yums =)

Thank you mummy for the lovely Xmas presents!
I LOVE YOU!
Bet everything cost a HUGE BOMB!

Gimme some time and I'll make it up to you love! =)

Have not got the energy and mood to read through notes...
IM SLEEPY!

Its 17 december tomorrow,time flies...
Can totally remember how things were when it was christmas season..
sweets

Everyday's work and dinner, sleep..
or maybe slot in some time for loves to catch up awhile after work.

Need to overcome my fear!
I WILL AND I CAN!

Jiayou Pocky!!

Been drowning myself in work,
sometimes it feels good to be a robot,with no emotions and feelings.

Goodnight Humans!

IM SICK AGAIN!

2010-12-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

WooHOOOoooo!

Im down and in pain today!
Stupid sorethroat and flu!
Been popping panadols again.
Thanks bud for the drink and strepsils =)

Buddy's enlisting tomorrow,
tonight's the last night of freedom.
We'll miss you Bud.
I'll miss you ,no more EMO BUDDIES!
Thanks for being there all the time man.
CBQ is HERE!

Come to think of it, its the 9th tomorrow...
Its been a month.

A sudden plan of flying to BKK this fri to sun FAILED!
hahaha super excited!
My Gf's funny!~
We'll go on one of the weekends when I start work ok babe! Next year soon! =)

Looking forward to Monday!
A new batch of training mates,
a new team after training. ^_^
A FIRST DAY!

I think I make amazing loving roses with tissue papers ^.^

Looking back, there's really alot of laughters and smiles...

I feel like keeping a doggy one day =) HEE!
A dog like BOO is damnnn KAWAII !

Its finally 5th tomorrow

2010-12-04T17:36:00.001+08:00

Still miss spending time with Boyfriend n small..
girls nite out and cooking time together,
can't wait to have another one soon...
They always acc me to keep the pain away...
Love you darlings =)

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Everyday I look at my handphone,reading through the 3 homework given.

No. 1 always slap me the hardest, yet its the most effective rule.

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Speaking of singing,

Jay chou's "Shuo Le Zai Jian" is rated top on my painful playlist,

the lyrics ...well written.

If you understand what the song is trying to say,

You'll probably understand how I feel =(

I love this song.

There's only 2 vocal that can make me tear.

First is Bud, Mer's.

Always make me cry.

Seriously dont understand whyyyyy mer sing sooo niceee and smoothhhhh!

The worse part is that people these days all sing the same songs in pubs.

so its OUCH X 10!

The other one will be Teddy's vocal.

One of the best so far in my circle of humans...=)

Come to think of it,

I have like 8 days left.

To start anew in my career!

From tomorrow onwards,I'll stay more at home and adjust back to a normal life.

I promised I will!

So you keep your promise too!

Happy beeday to mer in advance and celebrating ur enlistment buddy!

Dun be sad that ur in army during ur birthday!you have us bud!

Enjoy yourselves CBKs !!!=)

As usual the crazies will rock St. James down tonight!

Cant wait for tomorrow night...

Pray for Bear to come home safe

counting down 10 days...

2010-12-02T16:59:00.000+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥ 真正的爱情是双方无条件的互相投降，爱情是两个相似的天性，在无

限感觉中和谐的交融，爱情中的坚持不懈会创造奇迹，谈恋爱，诚实最重要，爱情到来的时候，你是不能和它理论, 也不能和它谈价钱，爱…本质上是给予而非护得。 ♥ ♥ ♥

Quoted from awesome writer in FB.

"life tells us that we cant be too hard or focused on things

the more we want it the more we lose it''

I hope I love my new job..

Work hard work hard Po! =)

JIAYOU BABE!

It's raining cats and dogs again...

blahhh!

2weeks!

2010-11-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

A whole new experience in two weeks.
Enjoy the freedom period while it lasts...

Was great catching up with Ray, Dar and Chun.
I like to talk to Ray,
a very sensible and matured brother =)

Learnt some cool card games!

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Its almost december and its the last day of the month remember?...

Goodbye Bear...

2010-11-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes in life we focus so much in the things we dun have and forget to appreciate for all that we already have."

Quoted from Jas babe

I've learnt, have you?

Pray hard there's no war ..

Just peace and fun.

Just remember somewhere faraway,

someone will be missing you...

muchie...

周杰伦-说了再见MV

2010-11-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

Rainy Thurs...

2010-11-25T16:37:00.001+08:00

Leepeng Chang

‎"Commitment is a sign of maturity, and it just takes some of us longer.."

quoted from bf..
make loads of sense to me.

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Nan guo...
been staring at the screen the whole day..

Suppose to go for Reggae, but didnt felt like going...

Was supposed to meet B,
no mood to meet as well,
or we'll end up driving to Yishun Dam to emo,
the place I'll always remember Teddy.

Here I am surfing the net,
can't wait to feel tired and sleepy...

I hope I can sleep til late tomorrow.

misses.

Teddy...

2010-11-23T13:32:00.000+08:00

I still miss my Teddy...

Just can't imagine life without Teddy.

I really don't like this.

HAPPY THURSDAY!

2010-11-18T14:37:00.001+08:00

HEE!
Still remember the days in Taipei!
I like the weather there!
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I must be crazy to fly down to Clarke Quay to meet sis and jie fu and bros at 1 am last night!
Beer Market to Zirca to Rebel~!

From now on.
no more negative posts here! =)

“Fools live to regret their words, wise men to regret their silence” - Will Henry

Quoted from Lao Da's Facebook!

*Like*

I'm still confused about the job offered, time to think hard again =P

I wanna watch HARRY POTTER!

MOVIE MOVIE MOVIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WOOOOWEEE!

sick again!

2010-11-17T04:48:00.000+08:00

wide awake at 5am,
back from dinner,prawning and whatever drink and talk and taohuey supper...
tried my best to stay out.

Popped panadols and panadols...
sore throat and flu..
awesome.

Eyes itching like crazy..
staring at stars above....

Goodnight folks,
I should TRY to SLEEP.

Please let tomorrow be a busy day...

There's something called "Trying too hard"

2010-11-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

Obviously ,naturally and logically,
after trying too hard,
we tend to stop trying.

Slap me and wake me up,
consistently remind me to be more realistic.

Yes, Im learning.
Thank you.

Human nature,
We'll be nice to people who are nice to us naturally...

Tough shits make ya stronger.

I need to wake up soonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

ARGH!

I ACCEPTED IT!

2010-11-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

Bum Bum bummmm bummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

Rainy day againnn!

Am going dinner and prawning tonight!
YAY!

Felt so shiok talking to small this afternoon =)
Jiayou Love!

I have slightly less than a month to bum around!

Things will be better in future!
GO POCKY!

Watched the movie "RED",
pretty interesting,
or rather,
the old man is still so HOT!
haha!

I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER!
Its out tomorrow! WooWeeee!

Thank you lucky stars in my life!
=)
I need to work hard soon! HEE!

SORE THROAT! SHIT!

2010-11-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

Not loving the rainy weather today. HEE!

Not over it

2010-11-14T13:08:00.001+08:00

It still hurts everyday.
I still miss ya babe.

:'(

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

2010-11-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

body aching day

2010-11-13T14:03:00.001+08:00

I got da offer!

Rusty in high heels,my muscles are aching all over the place.
Weak!

Jiayou to all with ya business,jobs and all :)

At the age of 22,its only the beginning...
Too young,too fresh,too noob.

Work hard for a future...

Everyone said its for the better,the choice made.
No more complications.
We don't need the whole world to suffer and trouble with ya anyway...

Its a saturday,I still wanna spend my night out, occupied.
Now who's there,I wanna be out...

Xin hao fan...

Wang Lee Hom - Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi 你不知道的事

2010-11-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

day 2

2010-11-11T10:49:00.002+08:00

Awake after 3 hours of sleep,
Can't sleep at all.

Sometimes I wonder how I managed to be so man,
Where I got the balls to express myself,
Or maybe how well I can put up a strong front.

It feels good being true...
No more lies.

Thanks love who are there for me always
Holdin my hands thru the pain.

Life's like drama,
I'm like a drama queen.

But I'm a little happier.a little stronger and a little more positive today.

A burden off my chest.

2more weeks to start exercising...
I'm prolly too rusty to even shop for a day...

If only life's like dota and L4D,where they actually sell health potion
I need tonnes of that right now.

If only...

2010-11-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

If only I could receive a sms or a call from the right one, right now...

Really need some ears...to unload my pain ...
the one that will really talk me to sleep and assure me that everything's gonna be okay...

Praying for speed recovery...

2010-11-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

I've walked through it,
Im a warrior.

mentally and physically scarred.
But I'll survive.

I am alive.
STILL alive.

I have so much to say, so much hidden deep inside...

Next,
I need to get a new job, interview's on friday.
Wish me luck.

Then it moves on to driving,
Im gonna master that soon.

just 2 more days...

2010-11-07T12:49:00.001+08:00

someday ya'll understand that its for ya own good when I walked away...

2010-11-05T19:03:00.001+08:00

=) SMILE POCKY

2010-11-03T14:59:00.001+08:00

In life,
I never believe in regrets.

I thought this perspective will never change.

But in fact,
Im mocking at myself.
I might regret for the first time in my life =)

Good things happened in life but prolly at the wrong time...

BE STRONG BABE!

2010-11-03T13:15:00.002+08:00

莫文蔚_真的嗎

2010-11-02T17:50:00.000+08:00

不是需要你才喜欢你、而是喜欢你所以才需要你。

2010-11-02T17:41:00.002+08:00

Thank you loves=)

2010-11-02T13:24:00.001+08:00

A special thanks to purp & small who kept me alive last night.
I din woke up in a mess.

"Gei ni zhen xin, ni dang gou fei"
to direct translate that its "give ya a real heart,ya treat it like a dog's lungs".

Its true that when you can't take care of yourself, how can you take care of others.

Given my current condition,
I can't afford to go out and destroy my livers everyday,
brainwash myself, tired myself out and sleep.

Can't possibly take those drowsy pill to force myself to sleep...

Everyday I look at it,
I see how unimportant I am,
I see how much its worth.

People said Im foolish.
Indeed , Im a fool.
Why am I so stubborn?

Letting chances slip as you take the risk,
high risk.
I still remember that day I took this risk and I remember those I have disappointed.
I let someone down.
Someone who's there for me every minute every second.
someone who can easily put a smile on my face,effortlessly.
Simple things can make me smile.

How tiring can that be?
Im not demanding,so how tired can ya be?

There's no regrets,
its only disappointment.

ya'll never learn to treasure.

Someone just slap me with this
"he's just not that into you..."

I was living in a lie.
If I din ask, maybe Im still living in it.

Pinky. Zee texted me,
"Given guaranteed happiness in the future,why don't ya wanna let go?"

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Another job opportunity came by,
Im blessed.

I'll never forget those who pulled me up...
I have many lucky stars in my life.

Thank you lucky stars!

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In fact,
we're all prayin hard for something.

When ya wanna leave,
ya don't leave anything behind.

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Im still waiting for the day that Im fully healed and recovered,
standing tall and high up in my beautiful cinderella heels.

I wanna be cinderella with the tears of happiness,not sadness!

Its a dead blog here,
I just wanna bitch to myself to ease that pain ARGH!

zua bu zu de xing fu...

2010-11-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

I really hate to sleep these days,
reason being I can't fall asleep.

Twist and turn for hours,
like frying pancake.

Guess I'll wake up in a pool of tissue once again...

Quoted from Jae in FaceBook

2010-11-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."

林憶蓮 - 傷痕

2010-11-01T20:24:00.000+08:00

TAP

2010-11-01T02:33:00.000+08:00

I went through it
and I ended up looking like a running tap water...

Goodnight humans

I wish I'll never wake up the next morning

my worst nighmare

2010-10-31T22:21:00.001+08:00

Happy halloween folks

Here I am in sentosa for spooktecular
Over rating,erm...
Average

Not really amazing,but its always da ppl who made it fun.

I duno what got into me,
Was alone in da train.
I got cold sweat suddenly,
Ears slowly blocked,
Vision blurred and it just switched off like a tv suddenly.

Helpless yes.
Everyone was staring but nobody did anything to help.

A number flashes across my mind just before the blackout,
A call I didn't make.
Useless,ya can't expect superman to fly over when princess is in need anyway.

Was lucky to have this aunt right in front of me,who stood up and lemme have the seat.
Really.
Had to tahan all e way til town for bud n small to pick me and bring me to harbourfront.
Thanks loves,really appreciated.

The thrill's over and I'm in discomfort.
Happy halloween.

I guess I'll hafta lie on the bed for some days

Bye humans.

Day 2.

Dumbo me

2010-10-31T15:37:00.002+08:00

because ya took it off...

because its worthless.

because nothing is the same anymore.
There's some things that others have that we'll never have.

Ya dont really need an answer,

ya already had an answer.

I know.

So are you happy now?
With the choice that ya made

[MV/HQ] Jolin Tsai 蔡依林 - 無言以對 Wu Yan Yi Dui

2010-10-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

MLTR-That's Why (You Go Away)

2010-10-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

An unhappy halloween

2010-10-31T01:42:00.001+08:00

No.
I din go to any party,although I've been looking forward to it.

Instead,we headed to kbox.
Sing all the pain out...

I'll be strong I swear,

See things so clear,

There's nothing left to say.

No Answers.

2010-10-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

Right.
Im back.

For whatever reasons I do not know , but I would love to RANT as much as I want here.

I've finally met up with bestie today,
from movie to ice cream waffles to chatting at the bus stop.

We spent 7hours together,
filling up the missing pieces.
updating the bits and pieces of our lives for the past few months...

All the happy and unhappy moments.
Shar said I should have consulted her,
Sorry babe, too late.

We cant possibly do a U turn anyway.
=(

Its nice thrashing everything out once again.
Coz no one else will know me better than ya,
talking about every thing under then sun.

I haven felt like this for some time,
for some reasons I felt the heaviness,
pretty depressing today.

Now I dont even feel like heading out tomorrow.

Halloween at Rebel?

I wonder if I should stay home,so I'll feel better alone.

Haunted houses in Sentosa on Sunday night,sounds better.
Too last min, no costume,no mood, no plans.
my excitement just died today.

Speaking of back to basics,
so where's the BASIC?

Bestie's pushing me to BBDC for registration tomorrow,
lazy me... -_______-
Maybe I should just keep myself occupied.
Really need a tight slap to wake up,
I feel like a living dead these days.

I wanna go Korea with Bestie!
I need some life.

And guess what,
Im officially quitting alcohol =)
For real.

Fruit juice and soft drinks in parties?
That's me and small!

As for my stomach flu,
no its not fully heal,but I can eat human food.
Non spicy/ sour ones,
no alcohol or whatever funny stuffs.
Discomfort, YES.

Thank god Im not puking anymore.

As for buddy's qns,
yes, I'll never have an answer for that choice.

Im done bitching to myself today,
Goodnight Pocky,
enough of EMO times.

tata folks.
(signing off in the most pekchek mood*)

蔡依林 - 美人計

2010-10-27T13:05:00.001+08:00

I LOVE VOGUE!
This is the best dance video in her new album COOL!~

i wish for health!

2010-10-26T10:37:00.001+08:00

Wide awake but I refused to get outta bed,
Damn its only 10am.

Without those pills to make me drowsy,
I have to stay awake til midnight everynight.

Been feelin' super bored with life in SG,
Shopping don't interest me anymore.
I still miss tw and hk!

Having nothing to do at all and jobless,
Happy that I'm damn free,
But sad that I'm not in a good condition to enjoy life.

This is going to be with me for long,
I don't like ya,
My unfriendly gastric!

Where is da love?

happy beeday to sick pocky :(

2010-10-24T23:19:00.001+08:00

Thanks all loves for all the birthday wishes and prezzies!
Happy birthday to myself!

Disobedient me ran outta house and went hooters to eat my favourite samurai wings!
Learnt my lesson in the cab,
Stucked in a hour's jam,and almost puke all thanks to the bumpy ride.
Teared like mad when daryl was nice enough to pick me at clarke quay taxi stand.

Once again,discomfort today.
Been lying on the bed the whole day.

When will this ever be over?
I can't eat again,I have phobia with food and whatever that reminds me of puking!

I wanna be healthy once again :(

Totally had mixed feelings spending da after party at rebel with zero alcohol for me self.
Green tea whole night wow
Was good seeing all familiar faces, I miss everyone.

Goodnight folks.
Prayin hard that I'll be alright soon.
Me scared.

Its hurting quite badly and I hate this torture..

田馥甄-寂寞寂寞就好MV完整版

2010-10-22T12:49:00.000+08:00

12th day of stomach flu!!!

2010-10-21T12:08:00.001+08:00

Its been taking way too long to recover,
Feeling like a zombie everyday on the bed.
Can't even stay awake for more than 3hours a day.

Its purely taking pills,sleep and plain porridge.
I hate this diet!

I wanna eat human food :(

Its birthday tomorrow,
But I'm not excited about it anymore.
Can't eat can't drink,
Always wanna puke zzz...

I hate this feeling
Pls get well soon!
Horrible infection!!!
Argh!

Wonder what's for tmr...I totally have no energy to do any planning

down day 6!

2010-10-12T19:12:00.001+08:00

I hate injections!
That was rhe most painful jab ever,
Compared to whatever bcg or what jab ya have in school.

My right butt was paralysed for a longgggg while and the pain still hurts after 2days!

Concussed on the bed for 20 hours after the jab.
That's it,
I did not manage to finish up some work :(

And I missed 2 days of work.
Goodbye seraphim
And that's my las day.
Not a happy one.

Been puking and having diarrhoea every minute.
Stomach flu sucks!

I hope its gonna be over really soon :(
I'm flying tommorow morning,pray hard that I can at least eat well and sleep well...

I feel so sick argh!

Buried

2010-10-11T13:53:00.001+08:00

Nope,
I din make it to work today.
A lot to be done and stuffs to handover.
Majority to be returned to company due to confidentiality.

Pretty upset that I can't eat anything these days,
Just porridge.
Sucha waste that boss wanna give me a farewell gift by treating everyone pizza.
She's really nice,gave me a good massage at work when I was dying and bearing with the pain on saturday night.
Thanks boss!

Have been feeling shit for 4days and I decided to visit the doc,
Today's da 6th ,I still wanna puke every second.

I'm going to doc again :(

~~~
Just wanna wish all october babies
A very very very
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

Happy birthday to ya...

~~~
Get well soon pocky!
Wed's coming soon!

shi zhen de kuai le ma?

2010-10-09T20:59:00.001+08:00

Snapped!

2010-10-09T13:45:00.001+08:00

It snapped.

Good morning saturday,
I'm on my way to work.

Feeling the same,shit as ever.
Unwell for few days.

Hate that wanna puke feeling,
I'm seeing a doctor soon.
Must be some dumb gastric issues.

Seriously,
I hate my indecisiveness.
Al's right.
That I should make a choice and stay firm with it.
That I should start with choice of food.

But no,
I don't have issue with choosing food.

We can't rewrite history,can we?

Given a choice I wish I can rewrite my own stories...
One that I really want it to be...
One that's e right choice :)

Its an OFF tomorrow!

2010-10-07T15:29:00.001+08:00

One more long lonely night til 1am ;)

Counting down that I've 4more working days and bid goodbye to seraphim!

Today I feel funny down there, my stomach!
I feel like puking and zero appetite

Saw the breast cancer awareness message all over facebook.
Chicks go posting
I like it on the couch,on the messy bed,
And mine's gonna be more creative!

I LIKE IT ON THE WASHING MACHINE!

It sounds hilarious to me though hahaha

Seriously need to go into a weight loss period after the taipei trip!
I have not been dressing up or wearing any make up for officially a week.
Well done soldier!

Feeling that maximum chuiness and shag to the max for nights this whole week

What's ya birthday wish this year?

forgive and forget

2010-10-06T11:13:00.001+08:00

Today I've decided to help someone who stabbed me with Untrue facts
For I know there are things I did not do...
And its okay if minor chose to believe.
Ya don't know me long enough to judge
Ya don't know my style
Which ever worKs for ya,go ahead.

I"ll be stubborn enough to make it work.
And make it work better.
=)

Counting down 6days
We're hitting taiPei !!!!

Time to go to work!

Tata humans

wanna kill humans !

2010-10-06T01:59:00.004+08:00

Dead.
At 1am!

I'm hating today pretty much
Tough day
:(

Pretty interesting to talk to colin sis

In life, one small move, one crack and one snap...
Everything changes according to it.

As time goes by...
Nothin remain except scars
We were given choices in life
But we did not make

Somethings will be lost and gone forever

I remember a msg
A msg that put a full stop to everything :)
Everytime it hurts,I'll recall abt the content
And promise never to do anything anymore

Boss asked if I'm alright today
Argh
I'm sorry just another awful day for me.
Hopefully tomorrow's gonna be okay.

Am lookin forward to 22october!
An excuse to gather all e important ppl in my life and have fun together!

Almost fainted on the way home
I'm glad I'm home
AHHH BOOOoooOOOoooo!!!
Unhappy unhappy me

Even chocolates and ice cream don't work at this hour
HELP!

I need to learn to be more decisive!

Its amazing that I actually felt this way...
I once said,
I love ya but We don't have to be together

Some random note posted by cherie on fb,
How do we forget when there's so much to remember.

And her fren replied,
We don't,we jus remember and move :)
Very interesting comment

Goodbye humans

im on NIGHT!!!!SCREAMSSS

2010-10-04T22:09:00.001+08:00

Me dislike night shifts .

Counting down to next tuesday hee!AWESOME!

Feeling.damn.SHAG.

I hope they call me really soon!

Saying HI to taiwan soon soon soon!
I'm deprive of shopping seriously.

Zodiac and horoscope readings on libra is very very accurate these days..
So interestin to take a peek on the app wheneva I'm free HEE!

Am spammin m&ms now!
Hate the new coke cans!
Did I forget to mention that I got a deep cut on my finger and feeling handicap at work.
Its still bleeding happily on its second day

OUCH!

I can't wait to be home HELP!

Am missing the ice cream times!!!

Its pretty amazing and scary to see and hear how someone snaps outta sudden
Why can't they control :(

good saturday ?

2010-10-02T07:17:00.001+08:00

After 3 to 4hours of sleep
I'm pretty dead travelling to office,

As I'm writing this,
I doze off twice.
Awesome

No more kpop party in zouk tonight
I'm too tired

Sat the whole night in silk til 1am and went home
Pat n kika thanks!

This industry is really small...
Ya'll be surprised that Ya still hear names of ppl everywhere ya go.
All e unglam stories and reputation of the Past.
Ppl will be talking abt it many mths and yrs down e road.
Ya'll be surprised.

I'm looking for the after work hours today!
Very very muchie!

I need some sleep!
Super wanna nua at home zzz

Pls be a good sat!
I'm 7 WORKING Days away from my last day arghhhh

birthday wish?

2010-10-02T01:14:00.001+08:00

If I ask whaT do ya want for birthday this year..

What will ya say?

a lifeless friday

2010-10-01T20:56:00.001+08:00

Its Silk time

toxicated off day

2010-09-30T16:23:00.001+08:00

Finally an off day but its back to work again tmr and sat.
I've been way too sianned,since buddy's in reservist.

Gf and I went silk,dropped by dbl o,zirca,rebel,ended up in lunar.
Jus chillin after days and days of shit days...
Home after all da drinks
Tts pathetic life of OLs ;)
Home at 2am

Pretty hate the emotional side of me myself and I.
Be strong be strong Pocky!
2 more weeks to taking a break in hk and taipei

Seriously missing da school days with gossip girls in university,
Come and go as ya like.awesome.

Miss those days ya don't hafta worry about any issues,punctuality,results,attendance
And ppl supporting ya financially!

Ppl who have not started working full time will never understand the pain
Zzz...

Irritating me.
Feeking kinda moody,emotional and with a pinch of depression.

Finally cut and had hair treatment :)

Feelin so dead today
Goodbye humans...
I'm done complainin arghhhhh

Learning thru blogs and FB!

2010-09-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

" A love with no priority given is short-termed"

quoted from darling kelly's page.

200% true...

shit day,day4!?!

2010-09-27T22:19:00.001+08:00

I'm tired...
Really freakin,freakin shag.

Today's one of da worse days.

How can ppl be so dumb and ignorant?
How can they be so mean and behave like traditional hokkien BENGS!!!

Sooooo angry!!! :(

Endure pocky!!

12 october is coming real soon !
Are ya ready humans?!

Kiss goodbye loves...

Prayin hard for an awesome day at work tmr! Hai...

countin' down

2010-09-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

2 weeks to the end.
The end of this chapter.

Am glad that Im taking a break and walk longer distance.

sis's bookin out on 1st oct!
YAY! party time!

where else?
Prolly with pat kika n folks?
HEE

im obsessed with my Bb..
pretty mobile!

gona wake at 5+am !

Im counting down to 12 october!
A BIG DAY!
a very very very BIG one =)

I wanna go taipei!!!! n hk!!!!

gdnight love.

happy monday blues humanssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....

A NEW WHITE BLACKBERRY!!!

2010-09-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

Yesh!
Finally I've got a piece of the pretty white BB mobile with gold shimmerrrrr,pearl colour!
Its outta stock in ALL SINGTEL SHOPS ARGH!

Been damn shag everyday,
finally got some rest today, my OFF day..
which reminds me that I'll need to go back office for work tomorrow folks...

Yes, my official last day will be 12 october .
Arent ya happy to hear there?
Leaving for good?
Yes I hope.

I hope good things come along the way =)

Super need time to heal myself and to get over certain things in life..
not easy..
REALLY...

In fact, Im still troubled and affected by the same thing over and over again..
did I moved?

The answer is no.

Am glad that bud's outta camp today,
I hope I can meet sister in all abt eve again later.
Maybe...

He's the only 1 that i can really spit out everything I have
and all the things that jam my brain network...
someone I really trust who will zip his mouth and just advicse me when I needed someone to be there.

He's one who knows me best..
or rather he's the1st I'll complain to and confess..

Love confession? NO FREAKIN WAY! HAHAHA

Its purely my troubles..

Its funny that when I miss someone, I WILL TALK SISTER COLIN LEH!
Every word that I can never say to someone, I'll TELL COLIN!

He's my venting corner...!

BIG FAT THANKS SIS! =)

its sad that GRAPE left us for china, for long, forever,
BUT WE'Ll MISS YA BUDDY!

BROTHERS FOR LIFE :P

shit days

2010-09-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Its my shit day ,DAY 3.
Pretty down with luck at work these days.

Been lack of sleep every night for a week.
How awesome is that?
Sleeping just 3-4 hours everyday and wake freakin' early every morning for work.

Was very distracted last night...
I thought my eyes played tricks
Everything looks like an illusion
I just keep yawning the whole night.
damn exhausted.
Sorry summer I nida head home at 2am...

To feel happy or sad over it?

I have mixed feelings.

Feels like Im killing my body slowly...
Always keeping myself busy everyday and night

Colin sis's in reservist
now my buddy's gone
nobody listen to me bitch
listen to my confession
my problems
my complaints
my everything
no one to advice me & brainwash me anymore
=(

Im not happy im not happy im not happyyyy
im fkin not happy
like seriously

If only buddy's not in camp

my new white bb is arriving tomorrow...
like finally a new phone and a new plan
awesome

bud said a stranger is like a friend who went overseas and never come back...

dont sound like a good description to me.

I enjoyed dining at WATAMI tonight,really...
just that good things come to an end
"LAI DE KUAI, ZHOU DE YE KUAI"
oh well..learn to be satisfied that I AT LEAST have a GOOD MEAL in a long day Zzz

hopefully its a good day tmr
I miss chilling out with ice cream and stars at night...

nothing's easy but Im trying.

Goodnight humans

Need a break!

2010-09-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

Did I mention that I got used to my job?
I enjoy the times with my team too.
All NICE people.

Yes, its a drag to work for night shift.
It begins tomorrow once again.
I still love morning and afternoon though.

Anywayz,
I might be leaving soon.
Its almost time for a trip home

I seriously need a break from everything.
I NEED TO FLY HOME.FLY AWAY.FLY HOME

cant wait for things to fall back into place and go smoothly...

The rashes are giving me a hard time everyday.
ARGH!

HAPPY BEEDAY JAS!
WE LOVE YA BABE! ;)

Im exhausted!
BLAH!

Staying outta this

2010-09-03T02:41:00.000+08:00

Im tired.

I tried.

Now.. I just wanna be me.

Be alone.

Thanks bud who came who and have dinner with mum & me.

And from now,

I don't wanna talk about a single thing related to r/s.

I prefer the way it is now.

Im tired of thinking.

It's time to take a break from everything.

Im sorry if im not paying attention when others tried to talk to me...

my mind kinda floated else where.

So goodnight folks

I better recover soon and thank god that its friday .

Had a horrible experience at the clinic today, more than 2 hrs Zzz...

The stupid allergic rash hit me.

goodbye world

SHOT!

2010-09-01T08:26:00.000+08:00

felt like someone just shot me but I dont know why I died...

all too sudden...

The same feeling once again...

that I sense it coming.

Ya're gonna walk away once again.

I tried.
And I know,this time if ya walk away...
I wont stay.

Im giving up.

For I know...
if ya are unhappy now...
ya wont be any happier in the future.

I guess I went through enough
and it shows alot this time round

Thru actions,words and behaviour I've observed.
I know ya're way happier w/o me

Sometimes I wish I know what's wrong.

Looking thru my call log,
my msg log,
and recall all that happened...
may I ain da one after all.
For I know some words ya'll never use it when it comes to me

maybe thats how feelings fade over the mths.

Been hearing excuses and reasons and everything.

If ya really love someone,ya'll give ya all.

It kinda struck me yesterday when I felt like shit at work and da news came along.
really...
for something that I always believe in.
Now I doubt
and Im lost.

I dont believe in myself anymore.

Its not da first time im hanging, waiting for a reply, waiting for an answer.
I dont know how long I can stand.

what are ya thinkin ?

Da king's back!

2010-08-26T01:43:00.001+08:00

Da king's back!

After I lighted da cab, I walked ard the favourite ice cream spot,around the whole park =)

Good times always bring a HUGE SMILE on my face...
I miss the old times very much..
Good memories~

was damn happy work's over and old man acc me on the phone all the way...
thanks buddy!catch ya at EVE soon with the rest of the khakis!

I MISS DANCING!hehe

time to catch a breathe =)

Im happy,after all the shit stuffs go away

And hello, my OFF DAY, MY CONVOCATION tmr on 26th August!

Much loves n misses

=(

2010-08-25T01:58:00.001+08:00

maybe the current isnt my ideal,
am missing all the past slackin times.

Time to source and look out for more.

Been thinking hell loads everyday,
never a day since that night I felt alright.

Never.

Maybe it takes decade to forget, decades to move
Decades to let the pain fade away.

Goodnight folks.

Am unhappy every moment everyday.
Thanks to me loves who called,hugged,text me.
Very muchie appreciated.

=(

What if?

2010-08-24T03:28:00.000+08:00

What if I feel like giving up already?

How do I go about picking myself up again?

my first night

2010-08-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

morning folks
For the first time i woke at 10.30am
Today's gonna be my first night
I hope I get my family leave approved
Not feeling too happy about it
Guess I'll only leave office way after midnight
gonna panic tonight, accessing different systems once again

Finally changed my hair colour to raspberry macaron!
very sick and tired of black
Its true that when chicks are moody and things happened
They always have a mood to cut their hair or do something to it

Havent been feeling okay since that night
I guess somethings will take forever to forget
or rather...
maybe ya don't.
They're buried deep down in ya heart
Every now and then, we'll look back.

Maybe ya don't,
but I do.

Im affected by what happened,
very muchie.
Somehow it still hurts bit by bit when it flashes back.

Old man Colin said I should look forward.
Its over.
And Its for the better.

He drew 3 cups with different water level in them.
He asked me what's the difference in these 3 cups.

I answered" DIFFERENT WATER LEVEL".

Was my answer wrong?

Nope.

I just seem to look at the whole picture with a normal perspective.

Bud told me they are all the same,
Whether there's a huge amt, medium or just a little water in it.
they're all filled with water.

And so he told me that I wont be happy if I keep comparing things in life.
Coz' all I notice is the difference in water level.
I'll never be satisfied.

Always enjoy the old man's lecture ,
forever full of wise words and different perspectives.

This one kinda struck me a little.
It's so true in life,
everyone of us will never be satisfied with what we have.
As the world's evolving,
we asked for more.
How many of us can be easily contented?

Its been 6 weeks since I stopped dancing.
Really classes and trainings

Work's been eating up all my energy.
And all that shifts.
killing the regurlar timing for classes too.
I really need to dance it OFF!

Going clubs I cant seem to move at all
coz the dance peeps arent there.

Its feels like 2 different world when ya club in office wear with colleagues, friends and when ya club in comfy dance wear with dance loves.

Both are fun, but when it comes to the dance part.
It's just different.

If only there's a place like Step up 3,
a house on top of a club.
AWESOME!

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i miss the gossipgirls!
clare,dave,von,kelllllll!!!

pls wait for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ORIENTAL HOTEL FOR DINNER!!!

Goodbye folks
A BIG FAT MISSES
*MUACKZ*
missing every single bits and pieces of the past.. ....

OUT ON DA FLOOR ALONE!

2010-08-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

YES
I graduated
PASSED
Dont look too good to me...

now really out to the floor under new manager new team members new environment new expectations
no more lunch breaks with peeps
no more working at same headquarters
no more seeing so many of ya
no more having same shifts
Just more of lonely time
on my own

Hairi's in reservist
I'll be feeling worse

Anywayz thank god its FRIDAY!
although its my REAL FIRST DAY!
its gonna be my LAST WEEKEND OFF.
yes... my schedule's 1 weekday 1 weekend OFF.
SAD but oh well..

suck it in babe~

Am not gonna waste the friday nite away...
time to catch up with my babies!
the 5 girls who were supposed to be grouped together

Dinner in town, whatever shopping,movies then party at REBEL =P
I miss my girls..very much!
Time to gossip again WAHAHAHA OOPS =X

Am good have a culture shock on the floor
Im prepared to have coffee all the time with my manager

Hopefully I can get my family leave as well as my block leave smoothly!
ARGH!

It's really not easy I must say.

I wanna spend my saturday night out desperately.
hopefully the loves can make it!
or at least buddy old man can acc me at night!
Don't wanna feel empty on a saturday night man!
CAN WE PLS CHILL OR PARTY ?!

Gonna bath n hit the bed folks!

Glad that I painted my nails for tmr!
All ready to have a Girls night OUT and maybe with any other friends who's coming along!

GOODNIGHT HUMANS!

=(
am afraid of my first day on a new seat... ...

Humans

2010-08-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

Humans don't forget..
They just choose to hide
choose to keep memories somewhere in their hearts

These are the things we will always look back and smile...

Who are we to judge one another?

Nobody's perfect
I'm not.

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STEP UP 3
4.5 STARS OVER 5!
super love lil'steph
HOT STUFF!
and eddie's damn cute!

Thumbs up for all the dance choreo!
Love the hotchick's sexay figures~

Something to brighten my day up

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Oh well..
I made someone angry tonight
I better go home for dinner and spend tonnes of time at home
Im sorry mummy
I Love Ya~

Just that life's been busy
work's been packed
and I need my own time and space as well

=(

My bad,
I know.

I'll spend more time at home.

`````````````
am missing some of the ice cream times
just music, stars, ice cream with no talking
Enjoy the silence while it lasts.

Goodnight Humans

I'll be all on my own from Friday onwards
Fear

The lonely days are coming real soon

Goodbye humans

RESCUE ME!

2010-08-15T16:40:00.001+08:00

Im back!
Sentosa trip wasnt that great becoz' I fall sick on the 1st night.
HAH!

Weak me
had a tough day at work on Friday and everything just suck afta 1 horrible case.

went to clinic to see a doctor, for my rashes.
Guess I gotta make another trip for my throat,flu and fever again.
Missed out on the beach activities and drinking parties.

Only managed to watch a movie and BBQ
The movie "SALT", rated about 3.5 STARS/5 STARS.
Pretty much predicted and not very amazing.
But 10 STARS for angelina.J.
SHE's STILL VERY HOT!
I LIKE!

That's about it for my weekend.
SAD CASE

Oh well..
after all I cant be pouring all my emotions into this blog.
Unless I lock this page up.

Prettymuchdon'tfeellikegoingtowork
Hi Monday
Imnotlookingforward

Im missing some of the old times very much..
Oh well...

the fun times.

especially the dancers and the clubbing times
Im missing out so much these days.

Everyone's busy with our own lives as time goes by.
I miss the "Family".

Old man's talking abt marriage on msn
that he wanna have a kid by 30yrs old, so he wont hafta take care of kids at the age of 60.
I guess I should intro him to all my girlfriends hahahaha
hopefully maybe a potential one wil appear someday!

Glad that YOG's over, now small's finally free!

Looking at myself
going 22.
hmmm...
I guess I have 6 years to make things work and to find out what I really want in life.
And if I pass that mark of 28 years old, its "JTB" (just too bad)
haha

Im almost done with my training period,
meaning Im going to the floor in few days' time
=(
On my own
independent
The rest will be gone by wed or thurs.
sad~
lonely days
Still feeling like a NOOB

I WANNA TAKE BLOCK LEAVE AND FLY AWAY!
I WANNA FLY HOME,FLY TO TAIWAN and FLY TO JAPAN!!!!!!!!~~

SENTOSA WEEKEND!

2010-08-12T23:12:00.001+08:00

The [D]ont [B]other [S]lacking peeps' hitting SENTOSA this weekend!
YAY!
TGIF!

We'll be going straight after work tmr all the way til sunday.
AWESOME =)

Been improving at work
but still feeling bored and sucky everyday
That's NORM.

Just reminded me that I've lost touch with DANCE
5 weeks of not dancing
It'll prolly die off someday
BLAH!
Its not working.
maybe few mths down the road,colin & I dont dance anymoreeeeeeee ='(
2 days of not eating properly,
no time to eat.
My mac breakfast became my lunch.
Cool?

Seeing gf coming in early,
leaving late,
working on SRs during AUX and lunch time.
BAD

Been losing focus everyday
prone to injury as usual HAHA
clumsy me
I duno how I hurt myself sometimes
DUMBO!
A new internal bleeding spot on my arm OUCH!

I finally got mum in town today
yum yum dinner and shopping together HEE!

BLAH!
Im so tired
a little eye infection

few more days Im thrown outta svc
Gonna feel so lonely on the floor
and Hairi's going for reservist
-___-

I wanna go AZURA!

---------------
Im done talking
in fact
I wonder why I got the balls to be so straightforward these days
HAH
Whatever that is
Just be responsible for ya own actions
At least keep me updated with what's going
and keep the promise
Last minute craps really pissed me off
very badly
especially at odd hours
Put yourself in my shoes,ya'll get it someday.

Imma gonna bath and sleep HUMANS!

See ya on the sands this weekend!

Oyasumi! =)

SORRY NATIONAL DAY

2010-08-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

FML

ARGH!

HAPPY "LONGER" WEEKEND!

2010-08-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

Firstly,
National day's public holidays on monday.
AWESOME.

Second,
congrats that my plan worked and Im staying for good.
Yes, still in the protected zone with the bunch of fun ppl at work.

Third,
not going to the floor yet.
which means still sat & sun weekend OFF ,
normal office hrs.
and say YESSSSS!!
im coming to sentosa chalet next weekend!

Lastly,
wonderful place to drink and chill at CARLTON.
Great peeps.
Great vocalists and music.
Thumbs up for service.

But when it comes to the negative side.
I wish that everything can slow down a little.
The pace at work is mad rush
No time to enjoy food
No time to relax or to catch a breathe

I need time for coffee alone!

Always feeling tired and sleepy
everyday lack of SLEEP!
And when I fall asleep,
its as good as being dead and drunk.
okay, I cant describe how tired I am everyday
SERIOUSLY.

Suppose to spend the night out.
But tk's sick,Ivy's driving to KL for the weekend and Im not going.
The majority's unavailable tonight.
So I obeyed old man "niloC" 's instructions.
To head home and sleep early
prepare myself for sunday.

HELLOOOO SENTOSA!
Pls dont rain on sunday.
PLEAS-EEEEEEEEEE!!

I wanna spend my saturday with mummy
and maybe to make it up to the kids.
Maybe shopping after givin tuition?

Was looking forward to a weekend trip.
I guess its too last minute.
On top of that, nobody's available anywayz.
SAD.

I wonder if its me thinkin too much once again.
Late at night ,I feel that emptiness.
Or was it I wasnt given enough attention?

Looking forward to next week.
Should finish up the booze.
Organize activities for the chalet.

Thanks Aidah for today's BAKERZIN CHEESECAKE and PIZZAs!=)
We'll miss ya!
cant wait to see aidah's gf's PHOTO.
heard that she's very much like ME! hahahah
cool!~

Please let everyday be as busy as possible
keepmyselfdamnOccupiedPolicy.

Goodnight Humans...
Happy weekend.
I better catch up with some beauty sleep.
*MUACKZ*

put it off

2010-08-03T23:57:00.001+08:00

To throw away some thoughts
I came here
The place where nobody visits anymore
maybe just a few souls to know updates of me

Anywayz
Haven been having really good days at work
But I'll pull through it
This friday I'll get some results
Then I'll know what's coming up real soon.

Just a random thought on what happen a couple of weeks ago
One of the night I went out with colin
my buddy who's there for me,
hear to complain
and company me when I needed help.

That I needed help,
to get somethg and to drop someth off.

Old man was nice enough to catch me at orchard,
we rushed to grab a birthday prezzie in advance.
It was crazy,because after which, we left and headed to somewhere for a secret mission...

No, it wasnt a secret mission to see anyone or to meet anyone.
It was a mission to drop off somethg quick enough to not get spotted
to avoid the awkward moment

Just before we walked into the alley..
I was joking with Colin how sway can things be..
What if we're sway enough to bump into his parents?

CHOY CHOY CHOY!

Just 10seconds later,
we were laughing damn loud as we approach the destination.
And becoz' we arent paying attention,
we did not realised that the gate was actually opened
and guess who I almost knocked into?

Yes...someone's father.
And the next moment..
another bicycle...someone's mum.

AWESOME!

I had to say hi no matter what, respect.
We talked abt my new job.
And why am I not surprised that they might judge Colin?
Poor old man who's nice enough to go with me,might actually be assumed by them that its my NEW BOYFRIEND!

Im sorry buddy!
I hope there will never ever be the next time.
That's the craziest thg I have ever done in my life so far.
To actually go there on my own,just becoz I couldnt wait for other days to pass to other friends to get it done.
SILLY!

I cant never forget the awkward moment when they told me someone's not in and they would like to have me there again in future.

Oh well,Im sorry Colin.
Was a bad awkward silence for all of us too.

My bud was sweet enough to traval with me to get thgs done
becoz after all,I would get to see him at all, so I had to go on my own to fix it.
And then I promised that in future..
If Colin need help in chasing girls I WILL BE THERE TO HELP!
TO GO THE EXTRA MILES WITH YOU
AND TEACH YOU MORE ARTS TO IMPRESS GIRLS!

After which we left for All abt eve..
The usual pub to chill, drink and sing...
Sorry Bro Ray that we're late.

And I told the whole world what me and colin did
and how unlucky I was... ...
They say I shouldnt have done so,
becoz never once we met up.
never once we managed to contact successfully and peacefully.

I must have lost my mind
complaining to small n purps what stupid thg I've done and sabo colin.
I was not on alcohol..but I dont why the hell I have guts to make colin travel there with me,
back at that place.

Life's sucha bitch seriously
when ya want something, ya'll never get it.
But when ya give up,things come looking for ya
Sometimes there's alot to say.

But really..
do we need to?
or everythg left unsaid is better.
The ending wont change.
will it?

What if it does?
because of human being soft hearted
Im sure I'll be shaky back then
preparing everthing for the worst.
---------------------------------------
I remembered all the days
even til the day after 18th.

I received a text from someone I have not seen for weeks..or was it 5 weeks?
someone I cant contact
or basically cut contact totally with.

When the whole world asked
"Have ya guys meet up yet?"
The answer was no.
Dont ask me why.

We just don't.

Strange
The day I decided to cut off everything and move..
And life's like a bitch.
It came back.

A question asking if I wanna make thing right for once.

Yes, I admit I rushed into it.
The thought of trying to make things work all over again.

And yes, I owe many people an explanation
Except the few that was with me during this period
They know everythg very well.

And so I made a choice
I told my loves,my buddies about the choice
I told people who should know abt it.
Just because hiding the fact wont work
And I had to be honest even if it hurts.

Did I make a wrong one?
I do not know
But I'll pray..

Open one eye close one eye rule applies

Deep down it hurts but since I've made a choice I'll face it.

-----------------------------------------------------------------
Im glad I had time tonight to come online
I need a white bb or a white iphone soon
am so deprive of iternet access everyday

von babe thgt Im just home,
but no !
I reached home at almost 9pm today.
To come home to acc mum.
Yes I neglected her loads
Im sorry mummy.

Sometimes when training/meeting delay after starts after work end..
I'll hafta settle my dinner out there.
I cant rush home in time.
Been with mum for steamboat,I invited bud over.
So he can pei my mummy.
I know she enjoys talking to old man colin.
And small too.

Its been the norm to miss all the shuttles to get outta comtech
Its inaccessible.
VERY.

No time to teach the kids yet.
I have no time to give tuition on the weekends
Its been 2 weeks since I have time for them
I dont know how to squeeze time out for the kids on weekends

Weekends' my family day
The day I wanna be home or out in town with mummy.

Sometimes I thgt I can finish up notes given by trainer
But everytime I bring them home
I'll never have time to look thru them.
I tried one of the night, but it was way too much to finish up in a hour.

I din even have time for a phone call when I was going thru SVC notes.
Sometimes I wish I can throw the notes away and spend some time chatting.
But nop..
Its piling up everyday.
And at the rate we are going thru the stack of papers during trg,
I'll never get it in time.
Often suffer from the lack of knowledge and information.

I screwed somethg up at work today.
I teared in the noon.
not because im sad.
But because it was too much for me.
I got way too pek chek
I tried to explain
He din allow me to.
On the line was horrible.
sometimes ya wanna help, but human dont freakin listen.

Babe G was worse.
somebody insulted her.
personal attack when handling cases.
"bitch" is the word.
sometimes I get so frustrated!
Why smart,educated,rich people are the ones who are contributing to the problems.
But then again,we are not allowed to do anything abt it.
Because clients/customers are ALWAYS RIGHT.

Dream abt work
eat work
talk work
sleep work

All of us got so stressed up by it.
Oh well, someday I might turn psycho and kill anyone around me.
I get frustrated with things so easily.
So many things I wanna put a PAUSE to it and PLAY it on nights when Im free.

Now Im here ranting
all my nonsense
so pls bear with me folks

----
Dear Mister Wednesday,
Im glad ya're here for me.
Because for what I know.
I only have ya available.
where my thur,fri and weekends are all packed with events, activities,family and stuffs.
So pls mr wednesday,
may ya enlighten colin bud,
lemme him bring me somewhere with good food for tmr night after a hectic day in office
Pray hard that colin's boss dont need to see him after work and make me wait for hours
pray hard that I wont end work late for cases,meeting boss and trg,missing all the buses to make my way to city hall
And pls lemme get some peace at the pub with some of my loves dancers
Lemme sing and eat and drink all I want just for tomorrow night.
I'll still head home early for some sleep.
Im guilty that Im not rushing home tmr to acc mummy and I have not inform her that I wont be home for dinner.
My bad.
But me hearts ya mummy.

And so I complained enuff today .
Throwing everythg outta my diamond heart.

The clock's hitting 12mn in a couple of minutes
Cinderella gotta hit the bed
Pls let tomorrow be a good day.

------------------------
Last bitch of the day:
I hate convo
waste of time
waste of leave
waste of money
difficulty in gettin leave from work

I was stupid enough to book the wrong dates for air ticket
Now Im getting Daddy new tickets to fly over to attend my grad

troublesome to order gown
to book tickets
to register

paying the tckes
for lousy food
paying for the gown
Zzzz
And I have no time to collect it

Okay Im done with bitching.

Goodnight earth.

Dont question me,
Im still living in my foolish world
I cant even answer why.

COLIN HELP!

=( Started with a good day, ended with a bad night

2010-07-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

It did hit me quite hard I guess
No, I didnt cry.
Or maybe I did?
Right inside
Maybe it reminds me of the pain the past.

Im not unreasonable
neither am I a possessive person
Im not always angry, unhappy with everything and picky in life.
No, Im not.

I just need proper ,nice explanation
A simple talk
A bit of understanding, care and time.
Very last minute changes maybe not so nice
Its like expecting something but ended up in emptiness

Everyone put in effort
that I know
Im not taking things for granted

Talk to me nicely
Dont bring me back to square one
To kill each other
and end up killing ourselves slowly

Been looking forward to dinner
looking forward to the night
But seriously,
why I am staring at my screen right now
feeling that little crack

Be satisfied
Be grateful
Be happy with I have
Learn to appreciate and stop asking for anything more
If anything comes along the way, Its a bonus
This is what I tell myself

I should rest early tonight
And I hope I get to have dinner with bud Colin tomorrow after work
maybe chill together and head home after a drink

Looking forward to friday night
HELLO CLARKE QUAY!
The "U"nited crazies from "D"on't "B"other "Saying" is coming to rock the night
I wanna eat good food
wanna drink drink drink and DRINK!

Saturday nite
a gathering party with the Ulala crazies @ sengkang
PLS COME SOON!
I love ya guys man!
A bunch of mad people!
Feeling quite sad that everyone's splitting up soon
If only we all din hafta part... ...

Goodbye Humans
*Off to shower*

Little miss SIGH-ing every moment

SUCHA DRAG!

2010-07-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

yea yea
back to my page where I can bullshit whatever I want

Yesterday was FREAKIN HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE DAY from morning til evening
With fever,flu, sore throat and STILL GOING to work...
It was bad bad bad..still BAD!

Ever since ytd, I've been feeling damn moody every minute

Today's just another draggy day
Praying hard enough to get a good day at work
Was lucky enough to not handle horrible cases

Dozing off everywhere I go
Dozing off on the way home

Am starting to dislike this routine everyday
5 days a week
9hours a day
60minutes an hour
60 seconds a minute

cant stop coughing all the time

sometimes ya wonder if ya made the right choice

Feeling like a zombie, eat medicine ,sleep,wake,work,home,eat med and sleep again

Dont really have time for almost everythg
Not even Facebook

Only looking forward to friday
The night to hangout with colleagues
and the crazies are hitting clarke quay
attica,le noir or rebel..
We'll see how
just wanna party, drink and throw everyth away before monday comes AGAIN

Cant seem to get any happier each day
losing that motivation
Just staring at the clock hoping that it'll hit 6pm soon

Everythg's supa rush, stressful and in a mess
Now I feel so shag.

Hate the way I look
Hate the way I dress
Hate my horrible complexion due to lack of rest
The only word I can think of is "CHUI"!

No mood to dress up or do a proper make up

I just wanna complain abt everythg right now
ME FEEL HORRIBLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS WEEK! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=O

Finally I bumped into Bud Mermaid today,
Buddy walked me to the nearest bus stop then left to meet his friends
Been many mths since we last met
I miss those school days man

My Luck's down for sometime
GIMME SOME GOOD LUCK PLS!

PLS BE A GOOD DAY TMR!

Gonna bath n hit the bed damn early today
now i cant even breathe properly
nite humans
Depress girl *Yawns*

Hello My Sicky saturday!

2010-07-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

Down with sore throat and flu
Those who think that i Chao Geng, ya are wrong!
In fact , I was kinda addictive recently.
After I woke up from my nap after medication, I felt like going back to office again.
Totally admit that Im STRESSED!
That's because Im new and there are tonnes of things to pick up within couple of weeks.
Basically, We have to know about EVERYTHING in a bank.
"Live dictionaries" I call my mates.

Stressed by the environment.
The knowledge we do not have.
The inferior feeling.

We need to conquer that fear.

Giving incorrect information, carelessness in handling the computer stuffs and whatever that's related to what we're doing will literally screwed each and everyone of us up.
So other than FINE( a few hundred thousands for breaching the law) , maybe send ya to JAIL(for years) sounds better. HAH!

I have not get used to it.
But Im adapting to the hours now.

Jay Chou concert SG's way better than I expected.
Mumbling is 1 thing, having huge lyrics LCD directly facing the singer is another.

But Im impressed by his efforts,
big big improvements in vocal & dance.
I mean seriously "JAY CHOU CAN DANCE?????"
wow..
I have to say he's kinda GROOVY now =)
And its forever the love songs, super good techniques in playin the WHITE GRAND PIANO.
Which chick won't faint if they see that?
Some songs actually...allows ya to imagine & find that pain.
Im not ashame to admit, but I DID TEARED when it comes to the damn classic GOOD love songs!

What's new?
Went to All about Eve's...cause Dar's there & Ray's there with the fun bunch of peeps.

The throat got worse today, it better heal faster before monday comes.

Its my *KACHING-ED* day
And so its a saturday!
How can I stay home and slack on sucha impt day?
I need programs programs programs
Take some fresh air from the world outside, apart from work
Am GLAD that Im catching up a few of the CBKs tonight
Will still empty when the sky is dark..
when I have nothing to do and all alone..

I made an effort to read a blog today
every single post, every year
Other than feeling sad, everyday Im feeling worried.

Angry.. Don't be.
Cause' we all know there there's nothing we can do...
I duno when it will trigger and end up in a mess again.

Learn to open up to friends
Learn to express youself
Learn to love yourself before you can love others
Learn to love your family
Learn to love your life

Nothing can bring ya down.

As we age, we mature.
We learn to look on a brighter side.
Yes, we do hide our feelings.
But sometimes, we don't have to keep everything to ourselves.
There's always our loves there to share our burden
Even if they can't help,they'll be there to support.
These people help us to make it through.
We experienced, we learnt.
We stand up from where we fall.
Time to kick off the emo, the self induced loneliness, the unhappy thgts.
We fight for what we want and what we love.

To try is always better than giving up.
If you give up, ya'll never get it.
Never.
But if ya tried, make it all worthwhile..
If it don't last, at least ya tried and try harder next time.
Never surrender.

Its a phase in life we all have to go through
everyone.
We all feel the pain, but we have to learn how to let go.
If your way's not working, find another way out.
Never blame it on anyone,not yourself.
Never hold a revengeful thought.
Never put it in a negative way and its not an obstacle.
Never ever say ya can't do it.

Who knows?
What might be coming up next.
Everyone's been thru shit, so what else can be worse?
Till the day ya healed and ya're ready,
ya're the perfect person =)

Today I finally blogged...
A lot of things left unsaid.

Its funny and strange,
as a human,
I don't understand much about emotions,feelings and thoughts.
we think too much..

Things are almost perfect.
almost there.

People complain when life is imperfect
while others having a perfect life, they want to have an imperfect one.
So how?
When will one be satisfied?

Envy, jealous kicks in.
Anger.
Low confidence level.
Humans learn tthe so called "OPEN ONE EYE,CLOSE ONE EYE" skill.
basically if ya don't get that, layman term in SINGLISH is
"ACT BLUR LIVE LONGER"
Its works somehow, don't ask me why.
Be it at work, in office,in the society,in a relationship.
Things ya know ya pretend that ya don't know.
Things ya see ya pretend that ya don't see.

We don't understand why we do silly things in life.
At least I don't understand but I still do silly stuffs...Don't ask me why again.
At least there's no regrets in not trying, isn't it?

Nobody's perfect.
We just learn to look at it in a perfect way.
Amend the holes, cover the imperfection and appreciate the beautiful side of it.

Sometimes we wonder why didnt I meet someone like that years later,
sometimes we say why didnt we meet someone like that earlier.
Sometimes we cant decide whether to follow your heart or your mind.

I hate to be a libra,
an indecisive person.
But then again, people will like to hangout with Libra,
cause they are go "ANYTHING", "YOU DECIDE",
not so picky, less conflicts,giving in all the time when they can.
For me, I'll say "JUST MAKE IT WORK!" =)

Humans are afraid to take a step forward or to take a step back.
Everything comes with a consequences.
We just have to weigh how bad the damages are.

Thinkin back,
the truth is
It was all REAL.

I'll give my all when it comes
But if its not appreciated
I'll step back slowly...
to question myself if its worth it.
To risk it or not

We cant compare,
if ya're comparing, maybe ya should stop.
everyone has their own strength/weaknesses.
Even the most perfect person in the world will have flaws for sure.

Standing on earth,at the age of 22..
I still find that I still have a long way to go
To experience a whole new world in the working society
To learn to support my family
To work something out on my career
To find someone who will walk with ya til the end, if "happily ever after" applies.

We just hafta take a step at time
living life with positive thoughts
keeping our fingers crossed that
Someday, it'll be better.
Im sure that day will come...
I should still carry high hopes and think positive,maybe I'll only panic when I hit 30.

Its proven that every morning after ya woke up ..
look into the mirror and say some positive phrases to motivate & encourage yourself WORKS!

So don't be surprised if i keep saying
" I LOVE MY JOB!"
"ITS MID WEEK WEDNESDAY!"
"ITS HAPPY FRIDAY"

Yes, laugh at me..
my funny colleagues always laugh at me..that fine! haha
IT WORKS!

Things happened
many complicated issues hit me within a month
yes, real happiness and real sadness

Every moment,every second I appreciate..
Had a taste of life that I'll never get to feel or find it again
To learn to love

Still feeling a sense of guilt in me,
causing troubles to people close to me or care about me
I never have thought that things happen this way
For things that happened, I would like to say "IM SORRY",
apologzing doesnt work,I have already screwed thgs up.
If given a chance I would like to travel back in time to fix it.
To never make a wrong decision
Never to hurt anyone I treasure

As and when, I'll think about it.
Im always worried.
But there's nothing else I can do or allowed to do,
all I can is to find out from ya friends how ya're doing..
A re-assurance.
The only way to keep myself calm.
Trying to kick that guilt away.

To end this post,I'll say
recover soon...please :)...
stand up and fight
live your dreams

Never say die.

Im hitting st James tonight w CBKs,
so what if Im sick!
Im coming to spread it to everyone HAHA!
get some fresh air
clear my mind
and throw away unhappy thoughts for maybe a few hours?
Thats temporary brainwash session.

Tata loves

Goodbye dramatic life

2010-07-18T16:56:00.001+08:00

Allow myself to fall for just one more day and tomorrow I'll pick myself up again
Back to who I was..

Stand up on my own and be strong

Thank you colin, for waking me up..
Im sorry if I made anyone worried
For the ones who make effort to meet me up,afraid that I'll lose myself,show care and concern ,be there for me.
I really appreciate that.much much much loves
Special thanks to Shar,Leo,B,small,jas,colin,beng,purps,ray
and the list goes on, ya know who ya are.
Its pretty encouraging after i saw J's smses,jiayou in reservist!

Colin's right,
"theres no 'rewind' button in life

if something goes wrong, the best way is to start over"

True enough.

So I promised that there's no in between
And ya seriously need to slap me hard enough to really WAKE UP AND BE STRONG

Today will be the last day
And couple of hours before the day ends
I will not be so weakkkkkk anymore!

Tomorrow's a new environment, a new start and I better pass my exam!~
If I dont, I'll DIE!
Zero confidence in that right now~
Mug time.

"must learn never to give up until u past the finish line"
What an awesome phrase
I think I see the finish line soon.

Last night is the only night I let my emotions flow
Things I've kept for weeks
I finally burst.

Congratulations to me.

"At least I tried", that's all I have to say...
Its better than not trying at all isn't it?

Hi, my new work place in the future,
Im glad that Hairi's in da same team as me in the future
The 1 and only guy I can go to work with, bitch and complain,share problems at work and maybe the only soul left ...
Training period's gonna be over soon, head count gets lesser each day..
I'll miss all of ya,crazy ULALA people! =)

Bye emo freaks!
Im back to mugging!~

One more week!
KA CHINGZ!

='(

2010-07-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

Double blow. X2

Suffocated.
Heartbeat undetectable.
Dead.

Going crazy if this goes on.

Meeting Kelly loves for discussion.

FML for now, I really would love to take a freakin' break and rest.

*KACHING* for 1st week ROLLED IN.
That's the motivation to keep going...
Hai~

BAD DAY

2010-07-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

Things are just as simple as it is
I don't understand why...things can be so complicated

GREAT
Im having working tomorrow,
totally can see how draggy it can be,
ARGH!

Whatever ya call it, PMS or whatever,
its so hard to do express and explain....
hai~
screw that heartbroken feel~

felt emo for a day and led to a sequence of unfortune events..
emotional creatures
ARGH HUMANS!

*RUNAWAY*

BACK TO DAH!YAY!

2010-07-06T06:57:00.000+08:00

A 1 day experience at The Comtech!
I still love DAH more =)
seriously miss those food!

Thanks all for dressing according to the MONDAY BLUES theme, I bet all of us felt blue enough, especially after all the unpleasant and crazy stuffs happened!
GOOD JOB CRAZY PEOPLE!

Missing Shar! somehow :)
That I haven't seen ya for really long!

Working life is pretty stagnant, monday to friday, leaving the weekends to relax and REALLY REST at home.

Am proud of myself that I managed to wake up everyday at 6am BY MYSELF! =)
Its crazily tiring for a night person like me~

I miss DANCE!

Looking forward to meetups soon!
Life is so busy right now!
GOOD in a way ;)

Keeping me occupied,no time to think about any unnecessary stuffs.
AWESOME.

Things will be better day by day.
At least I hope!

tata folks!
Mad rush to WORK!

cant wait to meetup colin loves!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MAN!
ya know WE ALL LOVE YA! =)
Birthday Treat !!!!!!!!!
COMING SOON!

The Mayonnaise Jar, forwarded by my GossipGirls khaki Sotong Von!

2010-07-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,

When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,

Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.

When the class began, wordlessly,

He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar

And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured

them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again

If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded

With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table

And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively

Filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,

'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..

The golf balls are the important things - God, family,

children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --

The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,

'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,

You will never have room for the things that are

Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.

Playwith your children.

Take time to get medical checkups.

Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time

To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --

The things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand

And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.

'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,

there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"

I just did...

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Kinda make much sense to me!
Thanks for sharing love! =)

SHAG!

2010-06-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

Just a reminder
It's only TUESDAY!

I hope my lenses are doing fine, coz Im like getting infection soon!
Today my left eye is red like cherry.

The new ones are coming soon! QUICK!

Did I mention my new super brown hair close to black?
Yes yes, kinda not used to it.
But whatever!
I wanna chop my hair soon!~

Today's 2 papers are kinda tough!
first its speed, second is information overloaded all over the place, don't know where to source!

Missed the morning shuttle bus, screw my life for travelling 1 hour 40 mins by train.
Screw the evening, papers ended late, shuttle bus overcrowded, train to airport and took 858 home! ZZZ!

Kinda no luck today man.

It was good to keep in touch with silvester, COLLEAGUE LEH!
A person who psycho him everyday, the same thing I do.
"I LOVE MY JOB"!
It keeps ya going somehow.
PSYCHO WORKS LAH!

Another paper tomorrow, Im feeling so tired and shag! madness!
Addicted to coffee, like taking DRUGS!
I nida cut down seriously.

Hate my fringe
always give me bad hair day since its like not long and not that short
argh!

IM TIRED!

Im craving for unhealthy food.
I WANT KFC,TEPPANYAKI,WATAMI! =(

SUNDAY! 日曜日! Nichiyōbi !

2010-06-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

And so Miss Honey decided to make life more active and interesting.
She went back to DWZ on her FIRST SATURDAY OFF DAY !
After not dancing for almost 2 months, Im rusty, old and RETARDED i must say.

Its quite SHIOK! and amazing to feel every part of ya muscles aching.
Its Daniel from O school taking over.
OH MAN!
The buddy instructor who taught us 3 years ago in 2008 and flew to LA for long.
Still the same style with big actions and tonnes of floor work.
LOVIN' IT!
First time i felt like Im 0.01% of a B-GIRL.HAHHA
His isolation is forever DOPE and He's got e HOTTEST HARLEM SHAKE!
We all miss this old friend!GLAD TO HAVE YA BACK for few weeks!gather soon!

Im impressed by Dan, the way he conduct a class.
So friendly and caring.
Teaches ya to love ya body ,prolong ya dance lifespan...
Targetting all parts of muscles.
EXPLAINS WHY IM HAVING BODY ACHE ALL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW!

Organised a house party, inviting the dancers over to gather.
PIZZAs ,Chicken,alcohol,drinks,soup,snacks and movie marathon!
Totally love it and sorry abt the last min, I forgot to inform all until Daryl reminded me to mass send.
Thank you for coming ppl!
I'll organise again and hopefully all those not present can make it!

Apparently,Colin's giving me a good lecture over MSN.
"iAnyhow says:
theres no formula to success but the formula to failing is trying to please everyone
so sometimes u have to sacrifice some"

Hmm..true to a certain extent though.
Or am I just too lucky enough?
meeting the right ones in my life =)

Miss Honey's super happy with her life now.

Time to SWALLOW 108pages of BANK KNOWLEDGE !
The papers are on TUESDAY!ARGH!

I've blog hopped this afternoon..
And to the IMPORTANT person .. ;)
Life hit you hard
Things bring ya down,
But I hope ya'll never give up.
There's a responsibility in you to make things happen
Stand strong and lead the people who need ya! JIAYOU!
There's an old saying in some chinese theory, something like when the leader falls, the people will all go down together.
The leader is the pillar to support everyone.
Im not the right one to talk or to tackle the current situation I know, but i hope encouragement works!
"Integrity, honesty, humility, courage, commitment, sincerity, passion, confidence, positivity, wisdom, determination, compassion, sensitivity, and a degree of personal charisma. These are not things that make a leader, but they tend to be some of the qualities of a leader and are often shown by their actions"

you have those...don't ya? =)
we just learn to keep our ears open, opening up our mind and soul to learn.

I believe there's expiry date to every conflict and when its over, its over.
We all moved on =)

Some years later, we'll look back and laugh at our past
The silly people and the silly issues.
Just like how we laughed at our secondary school friends when we were 13,14 years old.

Its been sometime since I last heard about any problems
I have not been active in Twitter haha
Its crazy!
Relax humans, spend more time loving people!
Appreciate the little things that make ya happy.

I feel so detached from dance already, I almost forgot how to make my way to the studio after 2 mths HAHA!

COLIN!~ YA OWE ME A BUBBLE TEA FOR BEING LATE! I REMEMBERED! HAHAHAHA

Whatever that is, I'll still miss those precious moments.
The bits & pieces of life we went through together, with sweats and blood.
Ya'll never find that kinda bond once ya step into the working society.

The first step to lose a battle is to GIVE UP!
SO DON'T GIVE UP LOVES!

Am still there to watch over ya guys, always will!

TGIF!

2010-06-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!
A damn happy day for all office hours folks with 5 days work week!
Woo WEeeee!
Went Expo for Robinson sale!
Best catch of the day, Lingerie from La Senza!
Madness buying Lingerie from different brands all over the place!
CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP!

Too long queue !
So we didnt managed to buy all the beauty products in time.

Had a great lunch @ Subway, sweet, healthy and AWESOME! hahahaha
Its damn sweet to see someone come all the way to have lunch with ya!

Its OFF day!
Im considering to go dance back with DWZ.
Time to move before OL habits kick in.
Just eat and sit the whole day in office!

Am super SHAG and not catching up with world cup!
GO BRAZIL I LOVE YA!

Enjoyed dinner and shopping with colleagues!
HEARTS!

Suppose to feel damn hype up during the weekends but then again... Hmmm..not really..
Kinda stress of next tuesday's knowledge share.
I DON'T WANNA FAIL!!!

Im looking forward to tomorrow chill session at me home~
The peeps are hitting my place I guess!
Eat pizzas, watch shows and playing drinking games!YAY!~
Cant wait for monday night to come.

There's always a sweet part after work! =P
OFF TO BATH N REST!

TATA FOLKS~!
LOVE YA!

AWESOME FIRST DAY AT DBS!

2010-06-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

I love love love the new batch in customer service :P
A fun bunch learning together and training for 6-8 weeks!

Thanks everyone for ya care and concern.
I love the environment, the people and the facilities!
awesome gym with personal trainers,equipment,shower,locker,hair dryer and open 24/7!
Friendly funny colleagues!

Very satisfied with life right now~
Happy anniversary to my dear CC shay n charlene!
Happy birthday to Bro, SWI JING HONG!
First day of work is fun!
never felt so loved before.

Throwing away the sadness and fill myself up with happiness!
Travelling's far but its all worth it.
tomorrow onwards there's shuttle bus to DBS asia hub!
GREAT!
makes life easier =P

The best part is...the dresscode is super free!
Since its back end, we are allowed to dress down if we're sick of office wear.
Sports shoes ,jeans,T-shirts allowed !
Just look presentable!

The trainers are really funny and interesting people.

Looking forward to tomorrow's after work time. HEE!

I'm LOVING the life of an OL!
Wooweeee!~

I doubt I wanna transfer to harbour front, I like EXPO!
Super appreciate home-cooked dinner with mummy, BEST!

WAIT TIL "KA CHING" COMES IN!
GINA N I SHALL MAKE OUR DREAMS COME TRUE!
Whacking shopping and branded handbag together! =X

SURPRISE!

2010-06-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

Steamboat session officially shifted to chun's since mummy's unwell and we had to make last minute changes.
SORRY GUYS BUT I STILL LOVE ALL OF YA!
=P
A BIG FAT THANKS TO CHUN for offering her place tonight!Thanks dear!
Super sweet and nice of herrrr !
STEAMBOAT with all me loves! YAY!
BRING YOUR OWN BOOZEEEE!

It's pretty interesting to see things work between humans.
The chemistry...

The world surprise ya everyday!

I tripped, I fall hard enough, I climb back up on my own.
Life goes on and everyone moved on =)
Im glad we had it once and im happy if we're still good friends in future.
We all know that everything in the past is over.
Thank you for everything ,appreciated.

Im back to normal, im starting to eat!
Been feeling very weak for the past few days, feeling outta breathe and dizzy.

Am super duper happy to meet up with everyone..thanks for being there for me Hearts!

Life never fail to get better everytime I have a meetup with bang!
A buddy who can analyse the situation very well,always have his ways to cheering you up and educating everyone.
BRAINY!

Im all open,pretty straight forward right now.
I was never like that.
Things changed, I changed, in a good way =)
It's better to voice things out than to keep everything to myself and suffer! HAH!

RECOMMENDED MOVIES:

TOY STORY 3 IS SUPER FUNNY AND NICE CAN!
GO WATCH IT PEOPLE!
something more creative, more meaningful,character development is DOPE!

SHE'S OUTTA MY LEAGUE is freakin' HILARIOUS!
Thumbs up for that!
Comedy,Romance movie =D

Take some time, take it slow~
It's just the beginning ;)

Bitchy Bestie in Indo

2010-06-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

And so my Bitchy bestie flew to Indo with nothing left but a sms.
VERY IRRITATING CANNNNN!
Pls bring yourself a Indo boyfriend home babe =)
I love ya~

To be exact, Im left with 4 days.
4 days to complaining how tired, how lazy I am, how far and how tough things will be.
A sudden change.
I'll have a hard time sleeping early and waking up super early!

But then again, its a good start!
Keep myself occupied, less night life, or rather its almost ZERO NIGHTLIFE!
By then, ladies night prolly does not exist in my dictionary.
Colin better travel to expo area to have lunch with me!

Tonight's wednesday.
No clubbing.
Im tired already.
We'll just chill with beer,with my loves.

Tomorrow's suntanning with leona loves.
Friday's modelling with da babes.
If there's a shoot this weekend,I'll be pretty packed.

Mummy says that I'll lose even more weight when work starts,
I hope so too.

I lost 3kg.
I can barely differentiate between the pain deep down and the pain from hunger.

A big fat thank you to those who brighten up my life...ya know who ya are...
Im stronger each day

OUCH!

2010-06-15T15:14:00.001+08:00

Its so unfair that ya always did nothing to save it.
The last time I run back to ya, I wonder why the hell I initiated for a meetup and gave another chance to make things work.
ya told people that I did nothing?
Is that all ya can do?

I cant believe my peeps had to run after me to snatch small's hp away,
to stop me from reading the heartless messages ya sent.

The next thing i know, is that everyone telling me to forget about it and move on.
That's what ya want.

Quarrel over nothing , stupid silly same issues everytime...
Always giving in to ya
Im a human, I take time to heal...
I cant just be okay right away the moment ya said sorry after losing ya temper...
Ya dont have to gimme that face, raise ya volume and cut me off by raising ya hand in my face n say stop.

sometimes,ya're just so selfish,high ego,self-centred and insensitive...

I wonder why i shut up when i see msgs i dont wanna see.
keeping shut and hoping everything's alright.
F! all the msn msgs and smses...

I thought for the past 17 months, its worth something.
I guess I was wrong..

Ya've always been like that,
start learning love ya friends, family, yourself, before ya really know how to love someone...

I see ya changed into a better person, even ya close friends told me that..
they used to dislike ya..but ya're nice now..

every night I cant sleep, i tired myself out til 8 am before i doze off.
I spent everynight flopping pancakes on the bed,staring into space
I cant cry all out,tears flow out like tapwater silently
Had to hide in a dark room to feel okay...to remove that mask.

I need my wound to heal
before Im able to feel

hate this feeling..
the effects kick in more everyday and night.
heavy heavy hearted.

why does everyone tells me that i deserve a better one...
when initially I thought ya'll be the one..

Thanks all the loves who were there for me when I was down,being there every night means alot to me.
rushing down from differnet corners of sg..
I thank ya and appreciate all ya guys do.
I really do.

=(

2010-06-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

I hate to put up a strong front.
I so sensitive towards human touch right now.
When my loves hold my arms, I know Im losing control.

Everyday I tell myself Im okay Im okay Im okay.
I don't want to trouble anyone anymore.
I don't people to worry about me,I can do this on my own.

I'll be okay,alone.
I don't want to cry.

I just need a drink.

counting down 11 days !

2010-06-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

11 days to start of training !
The end of freedom and holidays.

Been in a confused state and I no longer know what I want.
Why do I feel unhappy?
Why are there problems when there's no problems?

I just wanna rot and slack,party for abit for now.
Sitting on the sands and drinkin some beer sounds perfect.

Gonna start losing touch in many things I do.
Wonder if I got the energy to go Bryan's tmr.
Been reluctant to do anything everyday.

Finally Im done with DBS.
Workplace's gonna be far.

Im feeling so restless,so tired... ...

I don't wanna think about it,leave me alone

Bye folks~

If only that smile is not fading away

2010-05-26T16:14:00.001+08:00

HI PRETTY! YOU ARE REALLY VERY BEAUTIFUL ,BUT I DONT WANNA TOUCH YOU

2010-05-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

YESYES!
A second visit to GAY night @ ZIRCA! SUNDAY!
And Im still LOVING IT!

Totally hilarious scenes to see the boys feeling awkard going toilet, the system they have created to protect themselves in cubicles.
ONE WATCHING THE DOOR,ONE PROTECTING OUTSIDE THE CUBICLE and ONE PEE-ING!

WAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!~

Guys dress down to look less HOT and be very careful with their eye contacts to avoid attracting unwanted attention.
Over cautious over every movement and every touch accidentally with another strangers.
THATS HOW SENSITIVE STRAIGHT GUYS ARE, WHEN THEY ARE IN GAY CLUB!
hahaha

Th whole picture looks damn FUNNY when they get picked up on dance floor, kissing,hugging your waist,holding your hands ,bear hug you from the back, grabbing your chest and danceing with you HALF-NAKED ON PLATFORMS!!hahaha

To chicks,THATS TOTALLY HOT!
To dicks,THATS TOTALLY NOT! Oops!

To most chicks, you get to see what you love, you get to touch hot hunks but no strings attached (according to V.'s theory)
How cool is that.
hahha...
I enjoyed dancing alone on the dance floor with NOBODY INTERESTED IN YOU!
Nobody looking at you, getting close to you or touching you!
AWESOME!

But when you look around, everyone touching ,kissing and dancing hot moves!
SWEETS!
GAY NIGHT IS AWESOME!

1)First experience with a situation like this:
The hottest body HALF NAKED guy walked over holding my waist and just said a sentence.
"Hi PRETTY! You are really beautiful, but I dont wanna touch you"
"I just came to tell you that I think you look very pretty"
The guy finished his sentence and POOFFFF!!!

He disappeared! The next moment he grabbed another man from the back and they happily grind each other on the platform.

To feel happy about it or sad? You decide. HAHA

2)This case is better than V.'s,

she was drooling over this hot hunk, eyeing on him for some time and when she decided to move nearer to him.

POOF!

Another man walked towards the hunk,hugged and KISSED..followed by a camwhore session together.
OUCH!
Cute val frowned! hee...

3)An experiment the boy carried out last night:
When you try picking up a pretty girl on gay night, to reject you quick and nice...
They tell you..."IM LESBIAN!"
wahahaha..
of course it works!
Poor Robertoooooooo!

A good experience for all the first timers with their virgin visit to gay nights!
Absolutely entertaining. =)

Very Very Interesting!
I NEED SOME GAY NIGHT CLUBBING KHAKIS! HAHAHAHA! :P

Don't JUDGE, Don't DISCRIMINATE!

They are really nice people, they are just like anyone of us =)

Lesson Learnt: ALWAYS CHECK YOUR PASSPORT EXPIRY DATE !

2010-05-23T00:08:00.001+08:00

Thats CLarence!The boss of GOSSIP GIRLS!

Yes Yes. I've learnt a lesson.
I never ever check my passport expiry date and expect that nothing will turn out wrong every single time I go for overseas trip.
And soooo...The whole group of GOSSIP GIRLS went to Malaysia without me.
I went to ICA to take my OATH and to renew passport!

ARGH!

To compensate to all that I missed out in Malaysia!

I went crazily SHOPPING IN ORCHARD for a couple of days.

Food Therapy and Retail Therapy.

OKAY IT WORKS!!!

Bugis Street Level 2! Whacked some KOREA dresses!

Watsons! The Japan KISS ME MASCARA SERIES,facial products!

Crystal Jade! The new promotion for sharkfin and abalone at affordable prices!

Sushi Tei ! for madness sashimi n sushi !

RIVER ISLAND's having sale! Felt so sinfully buying all that bling watches and ring!

Mango !for nice long pants @$45!

New look @ ION! HEELS on sale!

S-xtradinary @ ION! Affordable tops!

Many MAny MORE!

GREAT SINGAPORE SALE's coming!!!

Have you saved enough bullets for this?

HAHA!

Not to forget to update..

That I AM JOBHUNTING!

Went for interviews.

Took profficiency test to be qualified for certain positions.

Alot more coming next week!

Time for a Full Time decent job!

Work hard to gain more experiences =)

Like what Raymond said..

"We have nothing to offer at this point of time..."

Goodluck to all uni- Grads! =)

Let's JIAYOUUUU!!

Cant wait for "KARATE KID" TO BE OUT!

I SOOooooo WANNA WATCH!